Never Look Back - Genesis 19:26

This tee design was inspired by the story in Genesis where God destroys Sodom + Gomorrah and commands Lot and his family to leave and not to look behind them. However, Lots wife looked back and she was turned into a pillar of salt.

This story reminds me that often times God pushes us in a new direction and even though we may not like it and we may want to stay where we are comfortable, we shouldn't look back. We should trust God and keep moving forward on the path He has set out for us.

In May 2015 I delivered my 2nd daughter, Reagan, still-born and in March of this year I lost my 3rd daughter, Hannah, and had to have a D&C. I wished so badly that this wasn't my life. I hated this new direction God was pushing me and I wanted things to go back to how they used to be.

I knew this path, as much as I didn't want it, would shape me into a different person. I fought this change for so long and so hard - I hated that this was my life with every ounce of my body.  The more I looked back and focused on the past, the more depressed and bitter I became. It affected my friendships, my relationships with my family and my marriage. It wasn't fair. I wanted my girls back. I wanted the "old me" back.

It wasn't until I decided to stop looking back and to start focusing on the future that I truly and fully started to trust God and His plan for me. It was then that my life started to fall back into place - and as crazy as it sounds, in ways it's even better than before.  I've noticed my relationship with God is stronger now than it's ever been, my respect, understanding and love for my husband is at a level I never knew was possible and the maturity and confidence I now have in knowing who I am and what's important in my life has given me so much peace and comfort.

We are now expecting our 4th baby girl and I'd be lying if I said I haven't held my breath during every single ultrasound. But the phrase, "Never Look Back" and this story in Genesis has been a constant reminder for me to exhale that deep breath, continue to fully trust God and keep looking forward.



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